The blankets were warm, and the voices of the nurses chatting in the background were setting me to a place of sleepiness that I had not expected, there in the room of prepping for the biopsy.
And then as the Doctor began the procedure, and I felt the needle pricks, my mind was suddenly aware of the combination of songs playing in the recesses of my memory:
a strange blending of the hospital’s Muzak version of
“It never rains in Southern California”
“Lord Let your Glory Fall.”
Pricking and prodding, and the needle going in and out,
but my mind was strangely soothed
by this combination of songs
in my heart.
It was a simple procedure, as far as the many other
possibilities for testings
that are sometimes required:
a “fine needle aspiration”
to send specimens off to the pathology lab.
But of course, my own weariness over the days
of adding in more issues
had become the driving force in my thoughts
as I had prepared for this place.
So, when those two songs brought a comfort to my
I wanted to know, and I was stirred to
to see if God meant something through it all.
From a song that is usually meant to convey a sadness,
“It never rains in Southern California, but girl don’t
they warn ‘ya,
it pours, man it pours”
about the squandered dreams of a would-be
actor in his wasted days in Hollywood,
to a song that expresses the affirmations
of a people waiting to see the Glory of God
come upon them, as they praised Him:
“You are good, You are good,
and your love endures always.”
Could it be that God was shifting my perspective
as I lay on that hospital bed,
bringing His Love to me there,
in spite of my weariness?
Because, the weight of the sad song had shifted
“It pours, man it pours,”
took on a different meaning for me,
as I felt the Goodness of God
pouring over me right there.
I have so often struggled and put myself through
trying to change my own perspective.
And, yes, assuredly, there are times
when God does clearly say that
we must change our perspective.
But what about those times,
when weariness overtakes us?
How can we change our hearts
when we have no strength for the changing?
I heard Him calling me to LISTEN.
I HEARD HIS VOICE
THE ONE WHO HOLDS THE STRENGTH I DO NOT HAVE.
It is in the looking up to HIM, the God that I reverence,that I acknowledge my own weakness,my inability to release myself from the snarewhere my feet have fallen.
Oh! But it is there that He says He will CONFIDE IN ME.He speaks,He tells me of His covenant of Love,HE POURS HIS LOVE ON ME.
Are you feeling weak today?
Are your feet caught in a snare of entanglement?
He wants to confide in you,
to pour out His love on you,
when you look up and listen.
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