The Walls of Winter


“In the depth of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer.”

–Albert Camus 


Standing outside, feeling the sun warm my winter-weary soul today, I almost cried as I tasted the air of spring on my tongue. 


What does winter taste like?  I never realized that I would settle in to the place of dreary and grey and count it as normal.  In the past, Spring seemed always to wait around the bend for me.  A Gardener with Hope-for-the-Sun, that was me.  But when fatigue rules the mind, then spring flutters itself away to a corner where it cannot be found, or even dreamed.


I placed the walls around my heart, even as the stiffness walled in my muscles.  And yet, somehow, Spring does come.  And my heart is caught unaware, in this place of walls and dim lighting and cold.  Have you been in that place?  Pain can do that to a person: make them hunch and cower and run for cover.  Jesus says that He causes the weary one to rejoice, but where is the music when the room is silent?


Psalm 18:16-19
16 He reached down from on high and took hold of me;
    he drew me out of deep waters.
17 He rescued me from my powerful enemy,
    from my foes, who were too strong for me.
18 They confronted me in the day of my disaster,
    but the Lord was my support.
19 He brought me out into a spacious place;
    he rescued me because he delighted in me.


That Spacious Place?  That Room filled with music?  That Taste of Spring? It has become my heart filled up with HIM; because He, the Lord, delights in me.   Pain or Fatigue or Weakness or Shame cannot stop His Delighting, because HE DELIGHTS TO RESCUE.


Oh, What a Thought!  Jesus delights in me, and He delights in you, too, my friend. again, I am linking up over at The Faith Barista, with her book, Finding Spiritual Whitespace, where I am learning to find REST for my soul.

She speaks about a heart walled-off from the pain of the past. But what if the pain in the present is where the Heart-Walls are?

Jesus delights to rescue me in that place of pain, and He will rescue you.  However grey or dim your days, Spring will come.


2 thoughts on “The Walls of Winter

  1. The warmth and new life of spring always revive my sinking spirits. Because of my chronic lung disease I can't take the cold so I don't get out much in the winter months. It has made me appreciate spring even more. I love the thought of an invincible summer being in us even in the depths of winter. No matter the season, Jesus still delights in us. Precious thought! Thank you reminding me of these encouraging truths, Bettie. Blessings and hugs to you!


  2. Yes, isn't that a wonderful quote for springtime? I actually heard it on a wonderful British Gardening Show, and then wanted to search for the poet who first spoke it. I am sorry that the winter cold is so hard on your lungs, Trudy! How precious that God does bring the warming days for all of us. I will keep you in my prayers this spring, as we keep looking up for HIS light. Thank you for sharing your thoughts with me too! Hugs & Blessings!


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