A Dream of God’s Heart for Us

I have been so honored to be part of the team at Beloved Prodigal over this last year, and I have been amazed at the opening of my heart that God has brought through the connections given there. The ways that we have prayed for each other in the midst of our trials have been such a blessing.  Just a few weeks ago, I was overwhelmed by a word and by a dream the Lord gave to me, and I felt His nudging to share it here with you.


As my body had been trying to recover from months of side effects caused by failed medications, I heard the Lord whisper the word “cleanse” over me.


“Let us draw near to God with a sincere heart and with the full assurance that faith brings, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water.” Hebrews 10:22 NIV


I sought to follow Him into that place of cleansing, and I allowed Him to slow my body even more than was normal. Eventually, as I spent a day in a physical cleanse, I offered my heart up to Him to cleanse it also, to wash away the debris that had accumulated.  As He indeed uncovered a rebelliousness that I had long clung to, I wanted to turn away.


“But Lord, I have needed to take care of so many issues. I have needed to shoulder a heavy load.” The tears ran down my face, even as I knew that HE wanted to carry the loads for me: He only was sufficient, and I had rebelled every time I tried to take responsibility. The fault for my illnesses and my failed medications were not mine to carry. I had shouldered that load long enough.


I had grown accustomed to carrying the “offense” of this disease as if it were my own burden. The nature of an autoimmune disease is such that one’s own body starts attacking itself, destroying its cells for reasons not fully understood. My own body was offended by me. I had carried a similar wound from past trials with the Body of Christ: I was the offensive one, who caused others to be offended. I had forgiven the Body of Christ for those labels, but I had allowed the name of “offensive” to stick.   I had shouldered that load long enough.


“Remember these things, Jacob,
    for you, Israel, are my servant.
I have made you, you are my servant;
    Israel, I will not forget you.
22 I have swept away your offenses like a cloud,
    your sins like the morning mist.
Return to me,
    for I have redeemed you.”

23 Sing for joy, you heavens, for the Lord has done this;
    shout aloud, you earth beneath.
Burst into song, you mountains,
    you forests and all your trees,
for the Lord has redeemed Jacob,
    he displays his glory in Israel. Isaiah 44:21-23 NIV


I heard His gentle whisper to me:


“Come away with Me. I am not offended by your weaknesses. I am already here in the midst of them.”


Over the past many months, I had heard Him call to me again and again as the pain seemed to strike me down. Only His mercy carried me through the unrelenting waves.  Yet, this time in the calling there was more:


“Come see what I have prepared for you here. You are mine. Everything I have is yours!”


I was so sleepy after the day of cleansing. The call to rest in His presence overwhelmed me and I fell asleep. Suddenly I found myself dreaming.



2 I am a rose[b] of Sharon,
a lily of the valleys.


Like a lily among thorns
is my darling among the young women.


Like an apple[c] tree among the trees of the forest
is my beloved among the young men.
I delight to sit in his shade,
and his fruit is sweet to my taste. Song of Songs 2:1-3 NIV


Beloved Prodigal 9.10.18.c


The sunrise shed a deep coral color upon a beautiful garden such as I had never seen before. Colors of every hue were shining along the path: my hands stroked the blooms as I wondered along. I noticed a sign over the entrance to the path, and it read: “The Beloved Prodigal Garden.”  As I walked, I sensed Jesus was pointing out to me that every flower was a gift He had grown along my way of rebelliousness. “How could this be, Lord? I was so far from you, and I was so ugly.”

“Every time you glanced my way, every time you lifted even a heartbeat towards me, I planted a beautiful seed there. This is the garden that I was growing while your heart was growing. Enjoy what I have made for you! Enjoy me here!”

The fragrance of the blooms wafted before me, but my eyelids fluttered, when the aching in my body awakened me for a moment. I fell asleep again, and the dreaming returned. As I looked down at my feet, there lay a gate of purest white. I lifted the latch and realized that the gate was connected to the loveliest white picket fence, glowing as if it were freshly painted with more of that purest white. It surrounded and protected the abundant blossoms.




You are a garden locked up, my sister, my bride; you are a spring enclosed, a sealed fountain. Song of Songs 4:12


I awoke with the vision floating in front of my eyes, hardly believing that it could have been true. Every trial that I had faced was part of the garden that my Lord was preparing. All the while that my flesh had been resisting His touch, He had been keeping my heart safe and enclosed.  Each one of my surrenders to His way had only brought a fresh drink from His pure living water, causing more seedlings to spring forth. What had felt impossible to me was a true picture of His dear tending. He called me His own daughter, His own garden.



Have you been in a place of needing to be cleansed? Have you felt far away from the ONE who would bring His healing water to you? He sees each one of us as so precious. He wants to work in the garden of your heart just as He has worked in mine. He wants to speak His own words to you.

Can I invite you to pray along with me, as we lift our hearts to Him now?

Dear Lord Jesus,

Thank You for the sweet love that You have poured over us. We confess that we have not always given our full hearts to You. But we can hear Your voice calling to us, and we fall before You now. Will You wash us clean again with Your living water? We are overwhelmed that You call us lovely. We are in awe of the precious gifts that You have won for us. Thank You for Your amazing love. We bow before You in this place of Your garden of love. May we lift back to You our own love here. May You plant Your seeds of beauty deep within our hearts.

In Your precious name we pray,



(First photo bettiegsraseasons.com; Second photo courtesy of Peter Mason, Unsplash)

(This post was originally shared with The Beloved Prodigal Community.)


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14 thoughts on “A Dream of God’s Heart for Us

  1. I was most struck by how you said you rebelled every time you tried to take responsibility. I just read another wonderfully edifying post at Karen Del Tatto’s blog about how worry is a control issue. Oh, I do believe God is surely trying to get something across to me in these two posts, as there are so many similarities that speak straight to my heart. You are such a dear blessing to me, and I am so thankful for your faithfulness during your fiery trials and how you share the wisdom with us. Sending much love and many blessings to you today!

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    1. Dear Cheryl,
      We have such a precious Lord! He is always calling us to rest more fully into Him, isn’t He? It seems that it is a lifelong process for some of us. I am so grateful that we can encourage each other throughout these days and seasons, my friend. You have been that for me as well, when the Lord has stirred through your sharing also. Oh, that we would lay our worries at His feet, and let Him show us how beautifully HE will carry the load for us. Much love, blessings, and hugs for you today also, Sweet Friend!


  2. What a beautiful, encouraging dream God gave you, Bettie! It brings tears to my eyes. It awes me to think of how “Every trial that I had faced was part of the garden that my Lord was preparing. All the while that my flesh had been resisting His touch, He had been keeping my heart safe and enclosed.” I so need daily cleansing from the Living Water. I’ve been asking Him to expose and root out the hidden idols within my heart. My heart cried “Amen” to your prayer here. Thank you so much for sharing the hope we have in Jesus! Love and hugs to you!

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    1. Dear Trudy,
      I am so very thankful that Jesus gave you hope here today. His ways are so precious for us, and such a beautiful way of allowing us to be woven together on our journey. He has brought hope to me so often through your words! We all do need that encouragement daily, and His living water so much. Isn’t He so good to bring His life to us? Oh, may I continue to allow Him to bring His convictions to me, and to draw me deeper into His heart and beauty. Blessings, love, and hugs to you Dear Friend! xoxo

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    1. Amen! He does know so well what we truly need. You are so right that even a small effort, in obedience to the Lord’s call, will have a spiritual and emotional effect as well. Thank you for your visit and sweet comments here! Blessings to you!


  3. Dear Bettie, this is a profoundly beautiful and deeply moving word. Thank you so much for sharing it! I’ve commented more at Beloved Prodigal. May God richly bless and reward His cherished daughter for her faithful obedience and surrendered heart. xox ❤

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    1. Dear Joy, Thank you so much for your sweet and supportive words that you always give to me. I am so very thankful for the ways that Jesus allowed us to share together with the Beloved Prodigal team. He truly has planted such seeds of beauty among us, as we all have walked in surrender before Him. Sending much love and hugs to you my friend! xoxo

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