Today marks the 100th post I’ve written for this blog! Wow, I feel like I should be celebrating. When I obeyed the prompting of Jesus to write out my thoughts on living this Journey with Rheumatoid Arthritis, I little knew the adventures He had planned for me. Opening my heart to post the trials and the joys along the way has led me to jewels that I never would have gathered had I chosen to ignore those promptings.
I wish that I could have tea and cake (gluten and dairy free, of course) with each of you that I have met along the way! This online community that I have entered into, with both old and new friends, has brought to me an awakening of how truly we are all deeply joined together. And one of those communities is over at Michele Morin’s site:
where she has been leading a wonderful book study on C.S. Lewis’ Till We Have Faces. After today, there will only be one more unit, and then we are finished.
My Mother always told me that if I wasn’t careful, I would lose myself in the books that I read. I can still hear her voice telling me to “put that book down, and get to work!” (But she was just as apt to lose herself in a good book too!) This book study has proven to be one of those instances, only loosing myself has been a good thing this time around.
As Orual approached her own life’s ending, and after her encounter at the strange temple, she began the writing down of her story. But what she found along the way was that her own memories had deceived her. She began to find an uglier face to her soul than even her physical face had borne. When her trusted counselor, Bardia, died, and she faced the love that she had for him, she ventured to Bardia’s widow to bring her a measure of comfort. But the revealing that was uncovered there was a process that began the unveiling that Orual had long tried to avoid. Bardia’s widow accused Orual of being the cause for his death,
“What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death?”
When the awful state of our hearts is first revealed, if we will listen, we can recognize a Presence there with us in the asking of that question. Our Savior stands beside us with an option.
“For you died,
and your life is now
with Christ in God.”
And in this newness of Life
where I walk with Jesus,
He uncovers yet new depths
New places in my heart
where He asks me still
Die before you die
There is no chance after.
This journey of walking with Chronic Illness?
How does it fit in with the life of freedom
that I have been promised?
How could something
that brings MORE pain
lead me to healing?
It is in this very suffering,
this daily dying to my own will,
that I find a precious intimacy
in learning HIS new way of living.
Are you suffering?
Is there an awfulness in your soul?
Jesus stands beside you, my friend,
And bids you follow Him
to die before you die,
and find a LIVING
you never could have dreamed.
In case you missed any posts in this Book Study series, and would like to catch up, an index can be found by
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Suzie Eller, #LiveFreeThursday