This summer has proven to be a time when worry was close on my heals, more times than I wanted to admit. I began this spring hoping to be in such a place of surrender, laying down my fears and asking God to carry me through the many treatments meted out for my Chronic Illnesses. I longed to rest and rejoice in the beauty of the lilies that bloomed in my garden, even though I could give them no care.
But when those treatments brought on more allergic reactions and side effects, and most of them came to a screeching halt once again, I saw that ugly worry-monster roaring in the corners of my sleepy mind. For it was usually the night-time hours when I would wonder how I was going to get through this season. And then my friend Pamela, at Chronic Joy Ministry, wrote to let me know they were going to re-post my allegory about Worry and Concern in their July Oasis of Hope mailing. Since they were in the process of making their posts accessible to everyone, she asked if I could also record an audio reading of the post.
“Sure, no problem,” I answered. But I didn’t know the plans that God had in mind for my heart as I read again the story He had given me over 2 years ago. Those words had become more personal than ever, as my own worries were exposed during the practice readings. It took me 3 tries before I could get through the post without breaking down.
For you see, the timing of this re-post is coming out just when I have needed to share with you, my dear friends, an update on my latest procedure, the Radio Frequency Ablation for my Occipital Neuralgia head-pain. While I would like to say that I came through with flying colors, and entered into it all with a joyful bubbly spirit, the weakness and pain brought me into places of new worries.
OH, but our LORD is so full of mercy. HE knows how to cover us with His peace, when our own worries have fluttered over and lodged into the recesses of our hearts. As I lay waiting for my procedure to begin, my body shaking with chills, and my Blood Pressure roaring to crazy high levels, the technician in the pre-op room asked me what kind of music I preferred. She tuned the channel to Christian music when she heard my response, and I listened with awe when I heard the words of the song that played over the room’s speakers: “Remember, God has always been faithful to me.”
And He was so faithful, to carry me through the procedure and recovery, without any allergic reaction this time! I am still waiting for pain relief, as the Doctor told me it could take 2 to 3 weeks for the results of the procedure to be felt. But whether there is complete relief of my head pains, or just minimal help, I know that my Lord is WITH me, bringing home HIS presence and peace to me.
Perhaps that worry-monster has tried to make a visit at your home also? Jesus knows the way to bring HIS own peace into our lives.
Will you join me over at the Chronic Joy website to read the story about 2 ladies, Worry and Concern, and the allegory of their lives that so beautifully intersected with my own this summer?
Click here to read along with me.
And I pray that you will be blessed as you listen to the same song that played over the airwaves before my procedure last week: